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I will write about my weekend soon enough. But to hold you guys over until then, here’s a poem I wrote way back in the summer of ‘99.

Anger, betrayal, helplessness

powerful emotions,

gripping, grasping, overwhelming

logic, rationality, reason

tools of the mind, agents of thoughts

fleeing on Icarus’ wings,

empty, devoid of substance

two adversaries, waging war wastefully

never resolving, constantly wavering

a neverending battle, I its only casualty

resolution impossible, doves fall to earth

friendship, loyalty, love

concepts with ideas of eternity trailing close behind

yet the strength of its bindings always in question

doubt, questioning, uncertainty

lurking around every corner and crevice

unseen yet its presence always known, felt

trust, given freely by some

fools they are, ignorant shells of humanity

trust is something earned, valued

not to be thrown around like empty thoughts

closure, clarity, completeness

necessary, yet painful at times

serening peace it brings

This is great!

good morning

I have a few things to post by the end of today. Hopefully.

Well, today is February 14th, so that must mean one thing. Today is Valentine’s Day. A day to celebrate love; a day to celebrate the people to mean the most to you. It is also the perfect example of blatant overcommercialization, and just a way for florists to get rid of roses and flowers, which would otherwise die in the cold, bleak winter. Very much similar to the way that Daylight Saving’s time was invented to stop people from having to buy more candles, Valentine’s Day was cooked up by some struggling merchants as a way to clear out idling merchantise.

Do I sound bitter? I didn’t mean to, really. In fact, the idea of Valentine’s Day very much appeals to me. It sounds like a great idea, but it was never something significant to me. Even when I was seeing someone around Valentine’s, I never really got into the whole gift-buying, gift-giving spirit. A few words of kindness were enough for me.

I had almost forgotten that today was Valentine’s Day. It didn’t occur to me until I came into the office and saw some notes on my desk. One was signed Cupid with some candy in it and the other signed by a name I can’t read. I have no clue who they’re from, but I see other desks with them, so I will not put any more thought into it.

So looks like the trip to LA is on. I made a few CDs for my drive and ordered a few which should arrive today. I just hope this cold goes away.

I feel, as Shell would say, poopoo today. My head is in a fog, and it seems like everything is moving by so quickly around me. It’s only 10am and I can barely remember my drive here to work. This fasting thing isn’t helping me much either.

Why the fast? Well, in case you didn’t know, today is Ash Wednesday, which marks the beginning of the Lenten Fast for Catholics. Luckily, I am allowed one regular-sized meal, but it has to be a meatless one. Though fish is allowed. I’ve also giving up a few other things for Lent, coffee and swearing being among some of them. The lack of caffeine is just compounding the mental pea soup I find myself in.

I’m having problems concentrating, which isn’t something completely out of the norm for me. But I just generally feel sluggish. I really should just go home and rest, but I have a meeting this afternoon and I have work that needs to be done. It’s weird though. I think I have some sort of head cold, except that I’m not sneezing, not experiencing a runny nose, or any other symptoms normally present in colds. I do have some chest congestion, lots of phlegm and an occassional cough. I hope I don’t run into Lori C. today or she’ll give me hell about being here while I am not feeling well.

I hope this goes away soon, or I will not be able to drive myself down to LA.

A few things today…

First things first. Congratulations to Mellie on the arrival of Mattie. What a lucky boy to have such a wonderful mother. Go there now and send some words of wisdom.

Secondly, to all my friends and family, Happy New Year! Today is the beginning of the Year of the Horse, a very special year to me, seeing how it’s my Chinese horoscope animal, along with my dad, an uncle and an aunt. Those of you expecting some lai see should get them soon!

Thirdly, it looks like I will most likely be down in the LA region this weekend. Mail me if you are in the area and want to hang.

Oh joy, it’s back to work. I wonder what my fortune will be today…