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it’s sad when the way you keep up with how friends are doing is by checking up on their xangas, livejournals, blogs, whatever. and how the only time people log into stuff like friendster and orkut is to update their profiles when something changes.

i was obsessed with friendster for a long time. we’re talking hitting refresh every 20 minutes obsessed. how sad is that?

which reminds me that i should probably log onto friendster and update my own profile. it’s so 2003…

once again, looking forward to the weekend…

unfortunately, this week is a long week for me, so my weekend won’t start until friday evening.

but my sister is coming to visit on the 6th! yay! we’ll probably do something for my aunt’s birthday the following saturday evening, after the company picnic.

ugh, feeling so unmotivated today…i’d rather be in the desert than here at work…

for a weekend that was supposed to be my vessel for catching up on three weeks worth of poor sleeping habits, it turned out to be one of the busiest ones i’ve had.

i was lamenting to amarind friday morning how lately i can’t sleep past 8.30am anymore, no matter what time i get to bed. he reminded me of a conversation we had a few years ago (bd, before dylan) where he mentioned the same thing to me. i had replied, “oh, i can sleep until 1pm…muhahaha,” to which he said, “just wait until you get older.”

ugh, am i getting older?

my teens describe me as a “kid at heart.” while physically my body may be 26 years old, mentally i would still like to think of myself as a teenager, maybe somewhere around 18 or 19 years old. well, maybe without all the associated teenage angst. i don’t need any more drama in my life. and for those of you who know me well, wipe that stupid grin off your face

it’s hard to think of my cousins are parents. i still remember back when everyone was living in ny, all the cousins would get together and play during family gatherings. my sister, mike and I are the closest in terms of age, with mike and my sister only 2.5 years apart. the oldest cousin (this is all on my mom’s side) is 8 years older than me while the youngest is 12 years younger. while my cousins out here used to babysit my sister and i, i never really thought of them as being that much older.

i met amarind back in 1990, when i was 12 years old. he came to visit for a few weeks with caroline and stayed in my parents house. my sister and i immediately took to him and he to us. we would wake up early to go fishing and crabbing and played badminton in the backyard. when caroline and he got married back in 1995 (or was it 96?) we were thrilled. he’s one of my closests friends, someone who understands tech-speak and someone who, like me, doesn’t always act his age. i now look at him as a peer & friend, while caroline i view as an older relative. it’s weird. maybe it’s because caroline used to bathe me when i was little

(edit: i just came across this quote on an old notepad here in the office…how appropriate)

we can make the plans of our heart, but the final outcome is in God’s hands - proverbs 16:1

it’s ok to be angry and never let go
it only gets harder, the more that you know
when you get lonely if no one’s around
you know that i’ll catch you when you’re falling down…

we came together but you left alone
and i know how it feels to walk out on your own
maybe someday i will see you again
and you’ll look me in my eyes and call me your friend…

i thought i was doing well today in terms to “eating control” until amarind pointed out that the margaritas and beer that we consumed prolly didn’t help our caloric intake.

i think it’s cute how katie (a.k.a. at-ee) is so shy around people (even me!) while dylan (a.k.a. d-d) is not. i’m sure she’ll grow out of it.

when i asked her what she likes to do, she said that she spends a lot of time with her family. we spent a lot of time over bubble tea talking about our families. my family 0ut here has been great and one of the biggest factors why i chose to move out here after graduation. having the new additions to the family has been wonderful and i think i’m happier now than i’ve ever been.

looks like we’re going to be at the company picnic in SC on the 11th. come by and say hello!